Maybe I am just tired

Part 1

"And the arms of the ocean are carrying me and all this devotion was rushing out of me and the crashes are heaven, for a sinner like me. The arms of the ocean deliver me."

Whenever I feel undetermined to move on with my life, I stare into space for hours and sometimes, days. This invisible force gradually thickens and weakens me. Overlooking my mistakes, I hold a heavy breath of regret and bitterness. The moment I let the force take over me, I lay down and confess defeat, ready to give in to what my mind has build around the debris of my securities. The enmity that once had existed between the force and my soul dissipated after realizing how fond I was of the darkness my mind was enclosed in. If at any point of time would I neglect the thought of it, I feel misplaced. The only sound I hear is in my head and even my conciousness can no longer control it. I befriended the enemy of my dreams after finding comfort in the one thing that has been around the longest.

“Death’s a funny thing. I used to think it was a big, sudden thing, like a huge owl that would swoop down out of the night and carry you off. I don’t anymore. I think it’s a slow thing. Like a thief who comes to your house day after day, taking a little thing here and a little thing there, and one day you walk round your house and there’s nothing there to keep you, nothing to make you want to stay. And then you lie down and shut up forever. Lots of little deaths until the last big one.”
― Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 10: The Wake

Not my best, still learning but Sarah was being such a good sport. Amateur lens... The weather was a killer, no sea breeze coming in at all. The best part though, an empty beach. Now, how about that? The best, I assume, among the lot of shots that I had taken.

Saturday: Sonya's sister, May, 21st birthday party held at Costa Sands Resort, Sentosa. Headed down to Sentosa with Camelia in the late evening, enjoying the atmosphere and scenery. Bumped into Sonya with Trina halfway down the road to Wavehouse. Afterwards, came across Sonya's sister, May, and her family and friends. Gorged down some food before walking to the beach again.

Trina wanted to try the Skyride so Sonya treated me, Camelia, May, Angela and her guy friend. He was so terrified that they asked for a plastic bag from the counter in order to avoid him from throwing up all over the place. Excited as we all were, the girls went quiet once we were ascending higher and higher. It was... hilarious...

Random Caucasian toddler.

The cute tot earlier on running around her father / foreigners crowding around the entrance

Trina's expression / awfully terrified Sonya

The view from above, although lovely, cannot be captured well aww

Guy friend who kept screaming... hehe

Luge at night 

So us girls departed from Trina, May and friends and camped outside McDonald's waiting for Seb(astian)'s arrival at the Beach Station. Introduced ourselves and made our way back to the chalet. There's a staircase leading up to the chalet so every single time we sneak off for a puff, we recalled the treacherous climb up back to the chalet and dread it.

Sarah then came along with May's other friends, so late night barbecuing + beer + May's $200 birthday cake

I was learning how to play Mahjong and despite knowing better, beginner Seb won us three times in a row. Quite a boring night really, what with the awkward company. The room was small and we had at least 12 people at one time so it was really humid, loud and stuffy.

The peacock that Sarah and I chanced upon when we were about to leave for home. It entered the barbecue pit area by mistake and was walking around aimlessly. What a beauty. My only closest encounter with an animal of the wild. Cabbed back home with Sarah at 8 in the morning. Quite a mundane Saturday, if I must say.