Ellie Goulding, Esplanade Concert Hall, 26th February 2013
Door 1, Row D, Seat 6
It was astounding. I waited years for this. I made a letter for her. I was speechless, awestruck by her talent and beauty. My only regret is that I couldn't touch her skin. Can't blame myself, I was alone.
Ended work at 7, rushed down to the Esplanade with M who was sending me off. I was so nervous my hands started shaking and I was breaking out in cold sweat. Tried to make small conversation with strangers but Singaporeans can be so reserved. I thought to myself, fuck it, I'm not here to make friends. I'm here for my darling Elena Jane Goulding. She was breathtaking. The way her body moves, the way she connects with the audience...
Oh, not to mention that I lost my phone right before the show. It was a blessing in disguise indeed. I had no distractions whatsoever from giving my full attention, tout yeux, tout oreilles.
After the show, I got lost. Didn't find my way out after taking a trip to the toilet but bumped into Bimo, who worked at Esplanade. He laughed when he saw me wandering and led me out to the proper door. The crowd was gathering so I just plopped myself in, knowing it was the autograph session. About half an hour or so, the media assembled and she appeared. All of the fans at the front of the line started moving, she signed their albums and hugged them. Eventually I realized my group wasn't moving because... I wasn't even in the queue. I was groaning in despair and found myself through the crowd and finally, saw the line. I was the last person in the queue.
When I got closer to her, my hands trembled furiously. I took the letter out of my bag and placed it on the table saying that I made this for her. She looked up from the signing the album and smiled, "Thank you so much." I walked away crying. I wished I got the nerve to kiss her.
